I get lazy and slack off at times, just maintain, but I’m back on it now. Today my BMI is 26.1, I have 6.5 more pounds until I’m not overweight anymore. I stopped by the gym only to use the scale, too ill to work out. It’s only a block out of the way, and since my flu or whatever I have is mostly manifesting in a smokers cough, the ciggies had to go. Boo, I wanted to wait another week. Couldn’t, my lungs hurt, and I’m tired of coughing.
I biked up to my green chemistry seminar, went for a huge walk, ate both lunch and dinner out. Some Thai silver noodle dish for lunch, a small veggie burrito for dinner. My signals are completely out of whack when I am craving nicotine, I can’t tell if I’m hungry, full, what I want (other than a smoke), what I should eat, drink, do or say. Basically I just try to avoid everyone, and the food is weird. Since I can’t tell or read any hunger, I will eat what seems reasonable and not cause weight gain. Externally controlled, at least until I stabilize a bit. This usually means that I make myself eat, so that I don’t screw up from not paying attention, and get too hungry, which always has unfortunate consequences. Defensive eating, I do it! I do it other times, too, like when I’m going somewhere that I won’t want to eat the food for hours and hours. I’ll eat a huge burrito, and be too full to eat for the next 8 hours, no matter how good anything looks. Does anybody else do this? Or even know of what I speak?
Here’s some pictures, one is a view from atop the stadium (kind of a steep slidey path to get there), and the other is some animal rights people protesting one of the leftiest radio stations in the country for not promoting veganism.