I really don’t want to go. I’m going to see the parents in a few days, which always causes major stress in my life. I don’t feel like participating in my day. I feel like staying home, smoking weed, watching tv. I’m feeling really lucky that I got over the bingeing thing already, but it’s hard to fight my tendency to withdraw, not participate in life. I will go to the gym for kickboxing and body sculpt, though I’d rather not. I will feel better afterwards, not just due to endorphins from exercise, but also that I am acting in my own best interest (for once), in furthering my weight loss, even though I don’t feel like it. I think I should get rid of my tv, it enables me to isolate.