Not really New Years Resolution, but I’ve been having problems with cigarettes, and promised myself I would quit before my new job starts, tomorrow. I waited this long because I didn’t want to try to quit while I’m at parties drinking and smoking, and now the parties are over. So I am an uncomfortable Day 3 off ciggies, also coffee. That was just an impulse, but I kinda like it. I have such unstable energy all day, wide awake in the morning, sleepy in the late afternoon, sluggish at night. Hard to tell, as the frazzled nerves of a newly nicotine free existence make baseline fuzzy, but I feel alert and awake. I need to quit drinking for a month or so, also. I don’t have a drinking problem, but alcohol seems to always make me decide that having a smoke would be a very good idea, and it also seems to make me eat mindlessly. Oddly enough, weed doesn’t have that effect, doesn’t lower my resistence to junkfoood/smokes, so I guess that will be ok, for now. Anything that will help calm my nerves, my hands hurt from clenching my fingers so tightly. Also, I’m starting to drink green and black tea, because I don’t want caffeine headaches, and am not that concerned with that habit right now either.
So as to how this will impact my weight and eating? I’m a bit worried, and will admit in the past to giving up quitting for weight reasons. But I’m going to stick with it this time. My whole life is changing right now, it’s just as easy to do it all at once. Smoking can increase your metabolism as much as 10%, and it also seems to decrease appetite. I don’t know if that’s because stuff doesn’t taste as good, or actual physiological reasons. As I’m quitting, I’m having a hard time finding my hunger, even though I’m not eating much at all. I think my digestive system is feeling sluggish, probably from lack of both cigs and coffee. And this is after a four hour walk. I don’t feel like eating, I feel like smoking a cigarette. I’m not in the mood for dealing with food issues right now, so I’ll impose some dinner on myself. If I can’t eat normally and intuitively, I’ll just arbitratily eat what and how much I decide is reasonable. The hell with it.
Hope everyone’s New Year is going well.