It felt just like it did when I was a kid. I wore a bathing suit, same one from my previous scary picture, about 10 pounds ago:
It’s now too big on me, but I don’t have another, and it was just a girlfriend and I. She was house/dog sitting for a traveling cousin, in a not too far town where the temp >103F (my town today = 67F). Swimming just isn’t a part of my life. Shorts are hardly part of my life. I sat by the pool, I swam in the pool, I did handstands and somersaults and flips. I wore a tank top out at night in public, got no strange looks, and I don’t even look too fat even to myself anymore. Still very far from thin, which isn’t really what I’m aiming for, just not chubby. Realistically maybe 10-15 pounds more.
I’m changing course a bit. I did a yoga class today, much easier and more comfortable than it was 40 pounds ago. I would like to do yoga 1x/week, I like the stretch and blood flow stuff. I’ve also decided to put more effort into the strength training. I also do that at least 2x week, but I don’t quite push myself enough to move up in weights, or really progress. It’s kinda silly, to go and be half-assed about it. I’m moving to a new town next month, I’ll need to join a new gym. Life is going to radically change, but honestly, it can’t be for the worse. Things have been getting a little better recently, but I’m not happy or thriving here.
Tomorrow I have a guest coming, for over a week. I haven’t seen him in 20 years, found him thorugh Facebook. Can I leave him and hit the gym an hour or two every other day? Surely he can entertain himself for a few hours, this is a major tourist town, and he’s here more to visit town than me. OK, that doesn’t seem too rude, when I look at it like that. I was concerned, but now that it’s written, it seems reasonable. Possibly this means a lot of meals out as well, but I think he actually can cook, so maybe we’ll just split the cooking. That makes sense too, maybe this will be okay. Wish me well, 10 days is a long time.