Nobody discussed body image. Nobody discussed diet or food, though we all ate and drank. One of us was obese, two of us formerly obese, one slightly overweight. We spent the day swimming, sunning (truthfully, I hide in the shade), exploring. We stayed all day, with other random strangers, who seemed very nice. None were self-conscious. I trip a little about my friend who had wls, doesn’t have to exercise or watch what she eats, though she keeps telling me she should. She doesn’t seem to be able to eat very much. I sensed a tiny bit of animosity between me and the heavy woman, though maybe I’m just imagining it. Unless my wls surgery friend told her I used to be big, she wouldn’t know. Oddly enough, my wls friend and I were the same size originally, but then she moved away from city (and bicycle) to a autocentric lifestyle in the burbs, with a new guy, and gained and gained and gained.
Anyway, I spent the weekend in the suburbs. I’m two weeks off cigarettes, not sleeping wonderfuly yet. I’d wake up at 5 am, go walk around until the sun got bright (7:30 or so), then eat breakfast, swim in pool rest of day. I don’t really consider walking on flat ground to be exercise, but not many other choices, and nothing better to do at that hour.
Now I’m home, off ciggs, about a month left on unemployment, and I’m starting to see some interest in my resume. It’s about time to go back to work, summer is over. Meanwhile, I’m going to try to get off this last 10 pounds that I need to lose to get to BMI normal. In the name of arbitrary goal setting, I’m going to try to lose 4 pounds by Halloween. That’s more than six weeks. It’s possible, but I’ll have to go to the gym a lot. At this point, I have to work hard for it, diet alone doesn’t seem to lower the number. There’s no way I can really know this, it’s just very slow, but goes quicker with lots of gym use.
Here’s a picture of me from the weekend, I forgot my bathing suit, which doesn’t fit anyway. It’s actually a visible difference from my last pool picture, four months ago. I think I’ve only lost 5-7 pounds since then, though I can’t be sure, as I haven’t kept track very well.